My Journey

I started my exploration into conscious sexuality many years ago, stumbling through tantra books. I instinctively knew that sex was meant to be more spiritual and although I didn’t know quite what I was looking for, I knew there had to be more to sex than what I was experiencing. I was ready to connect to something deeper and more fulfilling. 

Once the lust had worn off in my relationships I was often left feeling flat, my desire and libido waning. I thought there was something wrong with me, until I came to understand that the style of sex I had been handed to me by my culture, only taught me a limited and linear way of being sexual. It focused solely on stimulation and excitement, and taught me nothing about the pleasure that can be found through deep relaxation. Back then I knew nothing of the energy and pleasure in stillness, listening to the body and allowing the sexual energy to move me. My body and my feminine energy were frozen and constricted. Because I was so disconnected I was constantly overriding my nervous system and emotional body to ‘perform’ sex. Which sometimes resulted in pleasure, but over time left me feeling shut down and disconnected.